pi-san didn't update his nikki.
right now, can i do a small rant?
i feel like doing a small rant.
firstly, i would like to ask everyone,
if your friend who ain't that close to you but are quite with you (ie. just a normal friend) didn't come to your birthday party and didn't buy you any present. would you get angry with her?!
frankly speaking, i would feel slightly disappointed but not to the extent of being angry with that person.
however, for a moment, i would feel slightly awkward around that person.
why am i saying this is because these few days,
i have a colleague who just celebrated her birthday over the weekend.
for her party, i didn't attend as, to tell you the truth, i don't feel like going as i don't feel like socializing that day ( yup! there are quite a number of times in my life where i find socializing is troublesome X] )
anyways, these few days during work, THAT colleague's attitude towards me changed 180 degree.
in front of everyone, she would be acting all nice and friendly towards me
and when it's only me and her, she would show her f**king, bitchy, slutty attitude towards me.
is this the typical hypocrites found in a typical office working environment?
I HATE HYPOCRITES! *spit*
for this, i shall ignore and forget it and let herself to think stupidly that i give a damn to it.
anyway, from the beginning, i already told myself that never would i be able to find a friend who can truly truly truly treat you well and really really really want to be friend with you in this company.
whatever your colleague(s) are doing (which seems like helping you) are all stepping stones/intentions which can benefit themselves in the near future.
again, HYPOCRITES *yuck*
and thanks to her, i double confirmed with myself that i shall be myself - not to be another lady who love to gossip and just quietly do my work everyday.
i want to lead a quiet and low profile life for this next 1.5 - 2 years.
lastly, i would like to tell her that
"i shall not expose you or whatever because i believe that one day, all these disgusting acts will be found out by one of the colleagues. nothing is secret in the company."
minna, if you have read till here,
i want to say sorry for this random rant and also, thank you for reading it.
moreover, for allowing me to blurt out whatever is kept within me these past few days, because if i am not going to said these all out, i think i'm going to break down soon.
right now, i feel so much better :)